#gri is going away tmr forrr 2 days !! >_< so yhh <3

[thatonegaybrit]

; ramble / mini rant beloww ↓↓

; so in a discord where they don't know gri is trans && only know xim as myles who uses he / him and is it it weird to say it feels more genuine ?? like when ppl who know xe is trans use he / him for grim, it's not that xe is not grateful && euphoric towards it, but it feels like .. different ?? is probably bc gri overthinks things a lot but .. when ppl in this server call xim myles && use he / him for grim, gri feels moreso. valid and respected .. ? xe has described ximself as " queer " to them but never explicitly said what kind of queer, so yah .. but wdk, gri is having very confusing emotions /neu

; but also gri is very used to hiding ximself, covering up aspects && watering grimself down to be more palatable. xe only js started using xe / grim, talking in 3p && we / us more frequently on here && this is xes personal tumblr for crying out loud !! it's not like this is twitter or tiktok .. but gri isn't sure ab this server, xe loves it && has had many good moments. but with how gri is xe knows it's very unlikely all 190 ppl there will accept every aspect of xim, which xe doesn't expect them too !! it's js sightly sad that xe can't be fully grimself everywhere, gri notices little comments xe is uncomfortable w ( many " YOU'RE A PSYCHOPATH " and " delulu much ?? " comments .. ) which gri knows they likely don't know better but that's not the point yk .. but xe is no surprised, && it's to the extent is bearable. Besides this is probably most fun server gri found so far ..

; honestly gri doesn't know where xe is going w this, js needs to get it out somewhere yk ?? anyways. xe might start using signoffs on grims posts .. !! kinda like anon signoffs you see, gri thinks it makes xim comfortable, which is no.1 priority. also may revamp this blog a little because uhhhmm xe js wants too .. !! not now tho gri is busy next 2 days max probablyyy .. xe appreciates you reading this far, dunno why but tyyyyy for listening. gri hopes you have a really amazing time, and even if you don't xe is so super proud of you okk ?? don't be afraid of being yourself, no reason to be in fear of living. is a gift from the world that you're here and myles loves you in all you are sm <3

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